Work has not been the best, lots of pressure, and the future of my career here is going to need some time and thorough thinking of which direction I want to go to.
One way I will be put into somewhere more technical, the other I will be put into a more management position.
I think I know which way I want to go, but will it be the most beneficial? Weighing up the options is a drainer.
Not only work has been the worst but some of the people I have been as well. I’m so glad that the family space is all good at the moment.
Last week has not been the best week this year. Drinking heavily everday for the past week and a bit has taken a toll on my health. I only do it to escape, but in reality I think it just excentuates it all.
I can deal with work and family, What I can’t deal with is relationships. I wish they were simple.
When I saw her i had to hold back, but I fell into a trap. I had a cigarette with her outside. I forget out there where I am and I get lost talking with her. I sit next to her, my hand slightly touching her’s, I know what i want to do next and I realise where I am again. In the trap. I’m on the hook, strung up, hung and being gutted. I finally see my own beating heart getting ripped from my chest and in the hands of my executioner.
I’m dead and i’m dreamin